future.

I have been getting major baby fever. It seems like everyone is pregnant, or just having babies, and I'm not and I'm pissed. I had a really crappy c-section with Rowan and was told that 3 cesareans is enough for my uterus. I have this issue with children not being in even numbers, like if you have 1 child, you should have a second because it will make them more rounded and not have single child syndrome. I have three, and now my issue is, someone will be left out or someone will not have anyone to ride with at disneyland. Major life crisis, I know. I had Mason super young (19 yikes) and then I had London almost 3 years later. I was done. Boy and a girl, perfect pair, perfect duo, perfect family. Call me fertile myrtle, London was 5 months old, I was exclusively breast feeding and on the pill and she stopped nursing one day and wanted NOTHING to do with my breast. I bought some formula and worked through that disgusting mess and made an appointment to change my birth control from the pill to IUD, 1 week after she stopped nursing. So 9 days later, at my appointment I was told that I was at least 8 weeks pregnant. Shit! Joe ran into the bathroom and threw up hahaha. But Rowan came, and he is a perfectly perfect little redheaded boy with gorgeous blue eyes and a smile that makes your heart melt. We had just moved into this super tiny house that we were doing a rent-to-own with Joe' uncle. It was this adorable 1920's house on a HUGE 13000 sq. ft lot. My husbands a carpenter, we thought of the possibilities of it. But making 4 of us work in it was tough but cozy. Add a new born baby to that, sooooooooooooooooooooooooo small. like 890 sq ft. small.......outrageous. We did it, we made it work for 9 months, 9 crazy months. Then we got this great opportunity with our home, a home of our own. ok back to where I was going with this. sidetracked. ha.
I think that next year, when our house is done with his it's major fix ups, we are going to do foster care. We have room for another little girl in our lives. And I am sure there is a little girl out there who is all alone and needs a loving (& crazy) family like ours. I think next year will be good timing. We are buying a new car this summer that can seat us more comfortable with a third row ( not a mini van ) and we will be more financially set. Moving into a new (old) house is financially draining but rewarding at the same time. Anyways, i'm excited for the future.